There are
some times when I think of me,
Yeah, no
hype, no pretence… just me,
Alone as
the time I was born,
Crying out
with a devious intention to make others hear me,
Bawling just
to prove my ears my voice does exist.
There are
some times when I think of me...
Wearing nothing
but my personality,
My not so dainty
personality,
Y let my
temples leak rivers while I pull my lips to both sides,
Fooling everybody
around me, with my dim-witted giggle.
There are
some times when I look at my feet
And then a sniveling
intention of melodrama cuts up my path,
I feel a snarling need to turn round
And see it
there’s a way to make the world stop spinning,
Or at least
pretend that the time ain’t crawling for a couple of minutes
That I’m
the same little poor thing my mother received on a spring night
Loving me…warts
and all.
There are
some times when I remain aloof to keep on breathing,
There’s no
sense…
I might
well get drown in my own sobs,
My doleful
eyes are whispering watery rhymes to my ears,
And these –always
receptive – just keep them to themselves
I’m so damn
sure I will whisper some ruthless verses for you,
For everybody
who has hurt me!
There are
some times when I think of you,
Coming closer,
Kissing me
softly,
Wrapping me
up with the heat of your voice,
Wishing to
be woken up with a kiss…
With that brass-rubbing
heat the word “love” can turn into,
But I ain’t
sure I’ll ever hear that again.
There are
some times when I am baffled by myself,
And I feel my
scraggy soul led to derelict
By the life
of debauchery you’ve got me into,
And I smile
with a shame I thought I was unable to nurture,
But it’s
there, that's something you left behind.
There are
some times when I know I am about to die
And I just
don’t care…
I don’t
feel sorrow, nor pain…just a revolting peace,
I’m off to
bed, and if God is great as everybody says,
I won’t wake up to see another fucking day!